this is killing me

its been like a week since i got my first retainers but its so hard to wear them because theyre just so uncomfortable.

i wore them properly for 3 days, but it was SO insufferable. and then i skipped for a day or two to sleep properly, and continued wearing them. now its probably the time for my second tray but even this first tray was killing me for the whole week. whatever let me tell you what ive been going through

i absolutely cant close my mouth properly. they feel so chunky in my mouth i constantly have to keep my mouth open because when i try to close it i have to force it and literally pout(?) to close my mouth. and i just want to say, i never had a bite problem, so i don’t think it’s really a part of my treatment..??

i also think that they’re giving me an underbite because i constantly have to keep my mouth open? like im a paranoid person alright but i swear to god i never had any issues with my bite before. but right now and while im wearing the retainers i noticed that i always have an underbite unconsciously. hear me out here. when i close my mouth normally the tips of my bottom teeth rest touching the tips of my front teeth right? when i close my mouth wearing the retainers, it feels like my chin is going far too back because its chunky and its like creating this layer on my teeth that makes my bottom teeth sit way too back (and like theres the top teeth retainers too so its just like having 3 times thickness of my own teeth)

and then there’s the other way to keep/close my mouth, the underbite, because of the very same issue. and i think and am pretty sure that ive been keeping it that way when i try to close my mouth or like sleeping or something. the whole thing already makes my jaw super tense but these days i cant really keep my bottom teeth behind my front unless i make an effort. when i wear the retainers i always clench my jaw because they just wont fit in my mouth, i swear to god im going crazy everything hurts.

the second thing is they hurt my gums like crazy, especially when i wake up. i already look like the fucking guy from the godfather with the jaw prosthetics with the whole bite and jaw thing AND wake up to some crazy gum pain on the backs of my front teeth because it just sinks in there. my mom talked with my orthodontist because i was going through hell and back and she said its impossible for it to sink that far, but it HURTS BRO.

coming from there im also scared of the whole gum recession thing, because i can see that my teeth are noticeably longer, especially my front bottom teeth looks longer and weirder. they also feel like IF i were to actually make the effort and just nicely press on them with my thumb for a while, they would just come out completely. whatever what im trying to say is i feel like possibly in the near future if i continue to use them my gums will just give up and wont hold them anymore

my tounge also does not fit my the roof of my mouth now, again, chunky as fuck