Type me please

Hi.

I took many tests, and I got either ennegram 4 or ennegram 8. Normally, I wouldn’t care about these tests, but my sister was really adamant about finding my type, so I came here. I would keep this short and sweet, but my sister said I need to be thorough for ‘accurate’ results.

First, I’m not afraid to reflect on my emotions or the past. Not that I dwell on it (I got things to do.), but sometimes I can be melancholic and think of my past. My sister said eights aren’t an emotional type, so that’s why she doesn’t think I’m that. As for my peers, I don't truly fit in. When I was younger, I had a hard time fitting in. I noticed how I was bigger than other kids, more to myself, sensitive, and I wasn’t playing football with the boys. I moved schools a lot, and I would either be alone or in fights. As for high school, things got better, but I still feel… alone. Well, I'm somewhat of an oddball in my school and family. Even my twin brother thinks I’m weird cause I don’t please other people. While it bothered me (sometimes it still does), I'm not changing myself for them. I mean, I don't want to stand out, but I just do it. I won’t lie, I do want to feel some belonging, but I won’t force it. I whether stay true to myself than lie. Last, I do like art. I know everyone can, but I heard fours are usually known for that. The only arts I like are cooking, photography, and pottery. But I’ve been more active and got into sports, specifically ones that have to do with water (swimming, diving, and surfing), skateboarding, and snow. I like the adrenaline rush and intensity; it feels like I’m soaring. It brings out intense inspiration and other emotions, but most of the time, I feel confident and powerful. I’m already a confident person, but it gives me a boost. My dad worries I can take it too far. Sometimes, I can be extreme, but I’m usually careful. 

So, I should be a four, right?

However, I also value my independence and will be annoyed when stifled. I can be rebellious and have been, but not all the time. As mentioned, I'm emotional, but I control my emotions. Hell, I usually put aside my needs so I can take care of my family. I put them aside so I can focus and get things done. I won't lie, I had to push family away to get 'me time.' But I always come back and take care of everyone else. To be honest, I love taking care of others, mostly my family. When my parents aren't home, it's my older sister and I who are in charge... mostly me. I can be protective of my group, but I'm not strict. My younger siblings call me the "Momma bear" sometimes. (I’m a dude, btw.) I love children and plan to have my own after I live a little. So, I would be protective of them, too. I’m not overbearing, but I make sure they’re well taken care of. Back to my emotions, I’m expressive and sensitive, but I’m mostly calm. I'm not afraid to show them, including anger. When I’m angry, things get a little intense. I care less when I’m angry, and more upfront and confrontational. Now, I’ve toned it down more now that I’m an adult; ‌I’ve become more distant, however. Usually, I’m easygoing and chill, but I’m still firm and not a pushover, especially for my beliefs and loved ones. I get passionate or protective. Even though I don’t like confrontation, I don’t like being a coward more, especially when my family needs me. Last time I stayed quiet when someone hurt my sister, I felt automatic shame and anger. I didn’t want to get hurt, but I’ve accepted I’ll get hurt anyway. It was me or my friends and family. So, I grew brave and stood up for myself and others, and it feels great. While I don’t like fighting, I have no problem ‌confronting someone. I would rather protect myself than be a punching bag. That's something I believe everyone does... or should do.

I don't see how I'm an eight. Wouldn’t anyone do what I do? 

Most eighths are said to be ... domineering or controlling? Controlling sounds forceful, and I don’t like that. My family and friends say I'm intimidating sometimes, especially when I'm focused or angry. Overall, they say I'm chill and easygoing. I don't like controlling others. I want to control my “destiny” and make my own choices, but that’s it. Everyone is free to do what they want. You do you, and I do me. As for leading, I prefer not to. If I need to, I will; otherwise, someone competent can step in. The way my sister describes eights — like they’re tyrants or bullies and ‘selfish’, and I’m selfish a little, but I care about others. Just because I don’t care about trends and what’s “acceptable” doesn’t mean I don’t care about others. I’m more giving than I should be, but I want to live for me, too. As I look at it, I need to take care of myself first before helping others. Anyway, I respect authority (when it's deserved), but I still do my thing. Sometimes, I break a few rules because they're useless, stupid, or too rigid. Depends. I don't see an issue with rules, but I'm not a stickler like my Dad. Some rules are ignorable. As for intensity, like I said, I like some chaos and challenges, but not all the time. That’ll fry me.

I’m a walking contradiction. 

So, now that you know a little about me, can you type me properly so my sister can stop overthinking this, please?