Job struggles, unemployment and 30 years of constant burnout cycles (feeling hopeless)

-TLDR- I lost my Job, I hate the Business and don't know what to do or if there is any Future left for me.

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Hey there!

Jobwise, I feel completely lost right now. I am at home. Unemployed and burnt out to the max from my previous workplace.

I worked as a graphic Designer for over 20 years, plus additional copytexting and communication stuff. I lost my last Job in May this year due to huge Staffel cuts and found myself in a mental downward spiral since then.

My Job, the working World and Business in general changed a lot the last 6/7 years, and I already often struggled with this Business before that time. It feels so undemanding, but pressuring and overall just evil. I cry whenever I think about what to do next, because everything within me rebels and resitst even to the thought of going back in this false, inhuman, lying Marketing Business.

But what choice do I have?

I am over 40 years old and just worked somehow creative all my life. Nobody seems to need this anymore. A nearly dead Job market and the few Jobs remaining are overwhelmingly depressing.

Am I too old to start in a completely new Area? I would need a completely new Training and/or diploma. And in this Day and age ... what Job should I go for? How do I find out what I like or am good at? Or do I have to give up and wait til I starve to death? I can just imagin Jobs I would probably die doing, but thats possibly the burnout-depression whispering in my ear.

If anyone has any advice, thoughts, tip or lecture to share, please do so. Maybe just to get my head straight again and to make the first step to something or whatever.

Thanks for reading my whiny little rant! 🖤