How is this supposed to help

I’m severely depressed and so many bad things have been happening to me lately, I have to miss so many things because of my uncle’s funeral including a fan convention and my psych appointment. All my therapist told me is that I find myself in thought spirals and rumination about how bad things keep happening to me, that this week won’t be forever and to try to find one positive thing that happened to me this week and to keep taking my meds, and that she was going to send me an article about thoughts controlling what I do.

How is this supposed to help me missing the one opportunity I have to make friends or not getting my meds increased or the shutdown preventing me from getting financial aid and not being able to go to community college because I’m unvaccinated or my mom struggling financially. Every second is extremely painful and no one is ever there for me. I have no friends, no support, my therapy and meds aren’t helping and I’m at my lowest. I’m not grateful to be alive, I’m not happy about all the little “positive” things adding up when the huge bad things hit me like a truck, I’m just done. I can’t do this I can’t I can’t I’m sobbing my eyes out nothings going to help i need help so badly I need someone