Gotta love when it hits the point where people around you are being straight up psychopaths to prove that you're the problem

Like I'm just sitting here calm, but if I'm not living exactly the way other people want me to, they're going to absolutely batshit lengths to do things they know have made me freak out in the past because they don't want me to be better. They want me to be the psycho they've always said I am, like forget about the fact that I'm taking my own route of trying to be better that doesn't involve me taking a bunch of medications that practically turn me into a vegetable incapable of a single thought. I am literally being beaten and lied to and about, all because I refuse to suffer through another med cocktail that makes me worse. All these people want is for me to be complacent with the abuse.