AM I STRANGE?

actually,,In recent days...,I'm feeling really pressurized by my own feelings and doings...,idk how to put it but I'm feeling like I'm not enough and unfit...i wanna do something productive and new but still couldn't move a bit, and it's more like I'm stuck in a loop of procrastination...not like,i don't have any works...i do have my college records,observations,assignments(mostly not useful but have to write for marks),I'm leaving those works behind as well..idk whether I'm doing this intentionally coz I'm fearless or unintentionally coz I'm scared.....and more over whenever I see people of my classmates and age group do something...iam not jealous but just feels like, i'm the only one doing nothing....i have studies to do...works to complete,..skills to build...but idk what's wrong with me i couldn't do anything...I just wanna try out something...maybe something easy and new for me....i feel unfit in the whole, always something strange comes to my braincells and feel something weird for a moment and after sometime just carry on with same procrastination again,i even wanted to start a yt channel and post content but idk what to do either,,,at first i thought about yapping sessions but idk what to yap...but still I yapped what I thought for that moment but idk how to edit...and whenever I see new influencers,youtubers, etc...i feel so anxious to even post unedited and doubt myself coz people out there are doing better and putting alot effort but me and laziness just sat together...

I barely get 1 to 2h to do something coz i have to travel 2h+2h for clg...
I want you to suggest me...,do you feel the same,...?