Did anyone finally realize they were an adult in their 30s

Basically before this late August I was socially isolated for 4 years we decided to go to Toronto Fan expo and I had a good time but it was not until after

I had a horrible anxiety attack and flare up in late August this year, had to deal with anticipatory grief about my healthy parents and their passing. As well as health anxiety later on in September when I started researching about it and it made it worse. It was really bad in August, and September, and slightly getting better in October and today although I still deal with those thoughts of them passing as well as other bad intrusive thoughts.