its impossible

I met him at my friend's birthday party, we have 3 mutual friends and i can only see him 3 times if its a lucky year, it started last year and he is so kind, so funny and so handsome but we arent close, only thing i can be happy about that is he followed me back on insta when i sent a request to him, thats all, and now the birthdays are over for this year and i can only see him in april (bd's are in april, july and october) if im lucky, i know he is not interested in me but i want him at least know me a little more but its just SO MUCH impossible, also these 3 mutual friends are so against having a crush on someone in the same friend group, i know this because of its being spoken too much, but we arent even that close, like i said the most amount i can see him is 3 in a year, i hate the fact that i can only see him that much, i am so tired of having an impossible crush