I'm addicted

I said this in a different subreddit but I kind of want to get my words out there. I keep making an account here to try to get hypnotized or hypnotize others, or do just meet new people in the community, and then I end up deleting them after a few days cause I get, embarrassed? I don’t know the word. But I keep coming back to continue to get hypnotized or to try and hypnotize others. I can’t stop coming back, it’s so fun, this cycle has repeated for the better part of a year and. I think I’m addicted.