I feel like a embarrassment

I try my best you know to be known on r/hazbin and I think every time I reply with a image of character I like I'm just making a fool out of myself I promised myself at the beginning of this year I'll be more social and I'll try to perfect yet I'm not I'm flawed haven't really made that much friends online aside from two but even then I barely talk to them I'm so pathetic tbh I wanted to be known just as other people yet I fail horribly ever time it's a dream I'm trying to pursue yet a part of myself thinks that I'm useless and that nobody will never notice me for my efforts I'm sorry for whining about my problems like the idiotic fool I am and probably forever will be I've begun to learn that my efforts are useless and I'll never have that much online friends or be widely known this post will get disliked probably by a lot of you and I thinks it's deserved and warranted