How to mend a broken relationship. I (31F) really don’t know if I love my partner (38M) of 8 years

So I (31F) have a partner who is (37M) and we have been together around 8 years and have one child together.

I really think about a year after we had our child I started to get the “ick”. Now there was red flags I looked over at the start of our relationship because I was very young. Looking back now I would never do that again.

Anyway, I’m near sure I don’t love him. Sometimes we get on okay and I feel like oh okay maybe it will get better and then just after a few days I go back feeling the same.

The thing is, I have NO idea how he feels about me which to me, is really telling that he doesn’t love me. I mean if someone loved you, you would know right?

He never tells me he loves me, never has. I only ever remember receiving one text from him telling me he loved me first, and this was just after I gave birth and he had to leave.

He wants more children and so do I but I honestly don’t think I want them with him.

I think about breaking up everyday honestly. I get jealous when I hear my friends going on dates/getting engaged.

Am I doomed or can this be fixed? We basically spend no time together and haven’t for a while. I can’t get turned on having sex I have been faking it recently.

I would like to make it work for my child but I honestly can’t see myself being happy if I stay.

Also male thoughts on this? Is he just someone who doesn’t like to express their emotions?

I feel pathetic writing this to be honest but I have no idea. Has anyone ever came back from a situation like this? I don’t feel like I can talk to friends/family about this yet as I don’t want any pressure.