I feel like I don't belong anywhere
Just here to rant cause how everyone hates me for existing. Woo hoo (sarcastic)
So here's the story: I found out that I seem to think more than others my age, I've basically shown attributes a 16 year old should have (I'm 13, almost 14), which I've been told by many MANY adults countless times. What sucks though is that everyone my age seems to hate me or expect the best out of me before shaming me after being disappointed like since I think more and have "emotional intelligence" that I should be better than everyone. Big surprise: even I have flaws, like ADHD.
So boom, I sit here with people my age who hate me for existing. So I've decided to do some thinking to solve this problem — yeah, using the thing that shoves me into this corner — and decided "maybe I should become friends with people older than me" so I try doing that. Putting myself in their shoes, it'd sure as hell be weird if someone walks up to me and asks "yo, wanna be friends?" So I decided to do it a little less weird which is striking up a convo by complimenting stuff I'm interested in like merch. I do that, and it goes great, but most are usually like "by the way, how old are you? I don't see you here at this school" so I respond as always with "well I'm 13, I go to a middle school" and boom, instant deal breaker for each one. They all assume I go to the same school because oh shit, I look like I'm 15. I'm 5'11½ which is quite uncommon at my age where I'm from, Canada. I've tried getting to know older, younger, all end up disliking me.
Of course, I know that none of you can do much dealing with your own problems, and knowing my luck is absolute bunz, this will likely get seen by like three people and that's it. Either way, you dont gotta do anything, it's mainly just a rant about how I have to wait to feel less lonely, and that's by chance too so who knows. For anyone who does see this, I hope you have a great day, week, month, year, decade, century, and life :D
Posted Nov 6, 2025, 12:18 AM UTC