I broke the object for no reason

I was preparing juice with the juicer and the juicer skid and all the juice i prepared fell on the floor. Out of anger i throwed the juicer in the basin but it didn't break. I picked the clocked and cleaned the floor. BUT after 5 minutes something triggered inside me and i smashed the juicer against the wall and break it and instantly felt regret. I always vent out my anger in such objects because my LIFE SUCKS. NO FRIENDS TO SHARE THINGS. I HATE MY SELF. I AM FEELING SO DONE. I am just living to support my family . No body wishes me on my birthday. I don't have anyone to celebrate festivals with. I am fucking tired.