Something I've been realizing, finally

You don't have to engage with Christianity if you don't want to as an exbeliever. For a long time I'd get roped back into these mental 'arguments' with myself over it, not really understanding I was just keeping the embers hot for those old anxieties the faith created in me over the years. Sometimes the best thing you can do is just take a breath and keep walking if you see one of those fancy neon light signs blinking nearby (metaphorically speaking).