I’m scared to have a blood test because I don’t want to know what’s wrong with me.

I’m 20, a type 1 diabetic who has been dealing with health issues since March 2023. Stemmed from an ear infection, but medication messed up my stomach and I’ve got digestive issues that make me feel sick all the time, pain, I can’t eat certain things so I feel weak due to lack of vitamins and so on.

But I am absolutely terrified of blood tests for 2 reasons. 1 being a needle phobia, and 2 I really really don’t want to know what’s wrong, because I know there is. I keep putting it off.

I know the longer I leave it the worse it’ll be and it’s already been almost 3 years of being indoors because I’ve felt too bad to do anything ever, but I don’t want to have to go through even more than I’ve already had to.

I’m scared. I don’t know how to cope.