I swear to God every single trans woman is beautiful and passes but me

It really feels like you're just completely screwed if you don't win the generic lottery

I don't know why everyone says hrt is magic. Every timeline/before picture I've ever seen, people look like cis women and they barely had to change for it to happen.

I'm two years in and my levels are perfect but it's just a man, that's all I've ever seen in the mirror

Does anyone have any advice for coping with this reality? Being non passing feels like it's going to kill me