Afraid of diy again this time it’s the last I swear

I’m sorry I’m just so scared, I’m not even in the USA or UK where you people are being hunted for sports, I’m such a gigaluckshit because I should start legally in like nine months. What am I doing? Did I waste my money? What assures me that I’m not fucking up my health because I didn’t take a blood test and blindly trusted the resources I got? What if the diy I ordered is laced? What if the needle gets stuck inside, what if my endo discovers it when I start legally and makes me stop starting hrt altogether? What happens when my parents will find out, I’ll see them in two months anything can happen. I don’t know why I followed my paranoid brain, I’m glad for the advice I got but I’m just so so so scared something horrible will go wrong and I will fuck myself up to the point of not being able to hrt even legally. I can still stop but if I inject tomorrow nothing assures me I will survive. I’m sorry I’m so paranoid and scared I’m gonna go gymmax now