Street dogs killed my cat

I lost my cat day before yesterday. He was attacked my street dogs, I rushed him to the vet and they managed to stop the bleeding and bandaged him up, I brought him back home and he was trying to communicate but I didn't know what he was saying and he was trying to hide, I placed him in his hiding spot but his wounds attracted ants so I had to move him to a different place he could hide and I thought he would pull through but after 12hrs he started to shake, I knew someone bad was happening and he started to drool, I picked him up and rushed to the vet again but on the way he died, he died in my arms . Vet couldn't do anything, he suffered a lot and he did not make it.

He was a good kitten, he was around 9 months old, he was the sweetest cat I've ever had, never bit or scratched me, he talks back whenever I spoke to him and I had to bury him. I couldn't let go, it still hurts. He managed to meow a single last time, saying his goodbyes to me. I loved him more than I ever loved any human in my life. I couldn't even shut his eyes.

I can't sleep, I can't stop thinking, I can't cope with this reality.