Am I Loser or what? Where life is taking me I don't get it.

I did my cse in 2024 and got placed in a service based company for a double digit PKG. Super happy nd started working there. Stuck in a support project for 1.5 years till now. I wanted to become an SDE. I was frustrated, depressed nd felt stuck in life so decided to put papers nd kept off. I solved more than 1000+ leetcode nd good at dsa using cpp. Here's the catch being a clever student always want to be the best version of myself. I know MERN stack moderately made few projects. My fav companies uses java springboot nd AWS. Wanted to move there but all can I go is via sde2 for which I need to become sde1. Now I'm in notice nd still stuck to choose between mern vs java. I feel that I can work on anything nd can ace it. But all what I'm getting is 4lpa offers saying a startup with 2 yrs bond. Thought of taking it but can't risk of bond. I am all confused nd my notice is almost abt to end. I'm all again stressed-depressed this tym with no offer in-hand. Lost every battle I fought. Hoping to survive with no hopes.