I hate my parents

I'm 25 I just graudeted med school, since I was a kid I always had a dream of becoming a pro athlete, I trained, I had the genetics like insane genetics until I was 16 everything changed my parents didn't give a fuck about it and they forced me to quit to study hard to go to med school (which I actually don't like) I hate my life and my parents and myself I feel worthless watching my friends who continued sports and became stars rn, like big stars All that regret because my parents are from 3rd world countries with this fuckass mindset I don't know what to do, my life would be 100x better If they didn't let me quit I'm getting drugs to try to forget about this but everytime I fail I genuinely wanna kms. I need some help