How does healing work?

Severe relapse of GAD and mostly this is connected with not being able to perform my job anymore.

Been taking escitalopram 5mg, now on 8th day and still ramping up to 10mg by day 10.

Severe inner unrest and anxiety shoots up in the mornings. I know this is most likely the medication kicking in before it gets better...

Benzos help the situation but until then everything just seems absolutely pointless and hopeless. "I'll never get my life back under control".

I am off sick now since THU and literally every thought is connected to being able to perform my day job again. While people telling me "take some time off... do some fun stuff". But literally nothing is fun until i have solved that problematic area in my life...

Anybody feel the same in that situation? What helps?