I’m so sorry I caused all of this. I miss you.

I shouldn’t have let myself fall so hard for you. I know I’m not ready for anything like that. I have bpd and I reacted horribly to the whole situation. I know it was supposed to be a secret but I was too excited to keep it in. I messed this up. I fell in love with you though. You filled the void in my heart. I just wish you told me the truth about the other guys. I could have walked away without being completely devastated if you didn’t lie and drag me along. I miss you though. I think about you every second of the day. I cherished our time together and I never wanted it to end. I get to see you later this week to get closure and end things but my heart yearns for you. Every compliment, every time we cuddled, your touch and your feel is something I will endlessly crave. I feel in love with you and I’m sorry.