Just a whinge - please ignore

One: I met someone like me and i've never been more irritated by an innocent interaction in my life. Bouncy storytelling, constantly moving, didn't answer questions. I was exhausted. I would never voluntarily interact with them again. I can see why people minimise contact with me.

Two: i have to choose between having a partner or close friends or being myself. I meet someone. They were interested in my company. I was interested in their company. I got too excited. They backed off. I'm too much. Happens over and over and over. In order to keep people around i have to dull my enthusiasm. I have to be lonely or permanently, aggressively, in control of my reactions.