No passion, no direction, time slips away.

I'm probably the dumbest decision maker ever. I got a job that would've paid 50k/month but it was sales. I thought if get into core-tech and rejected the job. Started learning skills for tech jobs and 4 months in, I feel like tech isn't for me. I've already wasted 2 years of my life, one after 12th and one for backlogs in engineering. I don't have the courage to pursue my passions if I even have any.

I also fear failing at business coz I lack confidence. Every field I've tried to explore, I've failed at. I'm 24 now, unemployed, directionless, living off my parents' money. The thought of my life slipping away gives me anxiety that i try to numb by watching YouTube videos about business or online gigs but never dare to try them for myself. Feel like I don't belong anywhere.