I hate my identity and I want to change that

I am from Uruguay, and since I was a kid I hated being from this country and continent. I hate 99% of the culture, music, idiosyncrasy, lingo, etc. The only thing I like is the food.

I feel uncomfortable here, like I don't fit in at all, and others tell me I don't act like I'm from here. I also had too many bad experiences and saw too many fucked up things from Latinos both in person and in the internet.

It's to the point I feel more comfortable talking, writing, reading and even thinking in English. And when I do speak Spanish I mostly use words from Spain or neutral Spanish.

I think I got this weird contempt from my mother who also sees Latin American people as inferior, as well as confirming my own bias with the fact that we are third world.

Anyone else feel the same in their own country? Any advice to fix this?