29M, looking for a new best friend. Apologies for post length!

Let's start with the basics, I love survival craft and go on kicks with certain games. I love idly grinding and chilling on the open worlds, building bases, and bouncing between projects like it's pinball. Right now I'm in deep on Enshrouded. Last month it was Icarus. Every so often it's minecraft (anyone else waiting for the deceasedcraft update??) And I'll break it up with some oddball indy games like lethal company, schedule 1, Among Us (if I could ever find a group to play it with), RV there yet, Hell Divers, etc. (potentially open to others, even possibly some pvps if you arent toxic and have the patience to deal with me not taking it hella seriously) I've also been known to dive deep into gtaRP but I know that's not everyone's cup of tea. Time Zone is EST but like in the worst way. I'm usually on and off the computer from like 6 P.M. to 6 A.M. depending on what I'm doing. Yes you read that right. My sleep schedule is fucked but I'm not gonna drop all the lore ™️ about why in a post that's already too long to read.

So, I apologize in advance if my expectations seem unrealistic, I'm not trying to make demands, I've just met a lot of people that make me uncomfortable while trying to find gaming friends on the internet, to the point of making me want to hide my online status. I'm comfortable with a lot of things, from joking threats to dark humor (within reason, bigotry is the fastest way to catch a block) but when people are passive aggressive or unironically angry all the time it ruins the evening. I have hella anxiety, and will dwell on that for the rest of the night. I'd rather you be aware enough that a game is frustrating you and you need a break. I borderline need someone as anxious and with as much people pleasing energy as I bring to the table. I need you to be in touch enough with your emotions to be aware of others but be able to eventually get comfortable enough to call me a bitch if we're playing a horror game and I leave you behind while running from the BBEG.

Final Note: I have friends that sometimes join in on these games but they don't grind it like I do, hence me posting here.

TLDR: Looking for an equally anxious best friend to survival craft with. I'm on Enshrouded and they just added water physics.