Should I confess to my gay friend or should I keep it to myself

Problem/Goal: Should I confess to my friend? We’re both in our 20s and in College.

Context: Hi! I think I’m in love na sa friend ko. We’re ib college na noong nag-meet kami, he’s in an art program ako. I know he’s gay, but I’m pansexual naman and I’m open sa lahat. Open kami (circle of friends namin) sa lahat ng stuff, even in sex. He’s single but I don’t think na ready na s’yang pumasok sa rs since his past rs didn’t end well. IDK if I’m delulu or what pero kasi iba ‘yong trato n’ya sakin unlike sa iba naming girl friends. We hold hands and I tried to let go pero he tighten yung paghawak n’ya, and if he saw our friend/s he’ll let go like its a crime to hold hands. He always knew na kumakapit ako sa braso n’ya kaya it’s parang lagi s’yang prepared na i-hohook ko kamay ko sa arms n’ya. He’s so gentle, kind, and caring. IDK pero should I confess? I’m scared that it might ruin our friendship.