I’m still doing my absolute best

I’ve had my blood tests now and I’m just overwhelmly male. Ffs, I was kinda hoping that magically it’d say otherwise, but my levels are normal.

One of my old friends contacted me. I told him how hard I’m working on myself to delete all the blazisms I had previously. And well.. he took it the wrong way. I told him I’d been giving my good friend space for the last month.. and well he’s possibly going to tell her everything now..

You can’t trust anyone.

I had him removed from my friends list to prevent me from speaking to him, but he came to me this time…

I don’t want to lose the last female friend I have.. I literally will break down into tears if I lose her.. I’m just giving her space because I’m still not mentally well enough for her.

I had a 4 day streak of feeling normal again and now this happens. I’m back a bit to where I was previously, even if it is a minor issue.