Im a cuck

I've been talking to a girl for 2 years, I go out with her, I've never fucked her, I've never kissed her, but in return I buy her everything she likes, for example I look at clothes for her almost every day, I send her pictures on WhatsApp and she tells me what she likes and doesn't like, and I give her the order, and I realized that I like being like this, in this position. I realized this thing last year, on her birthday, I went out with her, I gave her money to buy what she wanted, and that same evening she posted a story with another man in the car, for a moment I felt jealous, but the next day, I couldn't resist anymore and sent her a picture of a perfume, to ask her if she wanted it, and from that moment I realized that this is how I have to be, and I like it.