arr slash actuallesbians:

"my girlfriend has become addicted to my gock help :o"

50000 upvotes

"i'm so happy for you lol"

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"puberty ruined my life, i'm such a disgusting monster, i don't think i'll ever be capable of romance, i need like 60k worth of surgeries to just to not want to die"

58% upvotes

"i think you should just go see a therapist, it's not healthy to think like this"

"you really need to work on your internalized transphobia, hon"

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And the worst part is that I probably could girlmode full time as I am right now and be accepted by the vast majority of people in my city. Not understood, but accepted. But my dysphoria is so crippling that girlmoding isn't actually viable for me, because I would be so constantly visibly depressed and dysphoric. I would be a huge downer. Everyone would ask what I'm even doing in school when I'm clearly too unwell to be studying full time right now.

Ideally I'd like to continue boymoding, but be open with my cissoid acquantances about what I'm going through and what I'm working towards. I could just say "hey, I need to leave 30 minutes early today to not miss my electrolysis appointment" and I would be fully understood. 

Dysphoria is bound to make it hard to follow traditional social norms because you're constantly feeling so depressed and uncomfortable. Yet we're expected to just fully fit into that mold. Progressive cissoids accept trans people in theory, but the way dysphoria makes us feel, look and act is not understood and is seen as wrong by them. 

"You're allowed to use whatever name and pronoun you want and we might even go out of our way to show you support. But don't you dare be openly depressed and uncomfortable all of the time."

I'm essentially best off just boymoding and being an emotionless doll in front of them all of the time.

cissoids are more accepting of rapehons than cripplingly dysphoric tranners