Venting I guess

I have terrible anxiety that even online I have never posted anything, even if I have nothing about myself here, but I just feel so alone and lost. I am afraid of being a burden and I don’t think I deserve to feel bad about myself when I know others have it worse or are in the exact position as me doing good or trying their best. Yet I am here. (Sorry in advance for the wall of text.) I am not doing well in college, I will probably have my FAFSA taken away which is a resource my family relies on. I will get more responsibilities yet i do not even have my driving permit because I am so afraid of harming others. I will probably put off all my responsibilities just like how I did with all my assignments. My only friends are not near me anymore, all are so distant and living thier life’s outside of the small town where I am stuck at and making new friends with the same people I try to talk to before and failed miserably only haunt me. I do not enjoy any of my hobbies even stuff like doom scrolling or video games that are supposed to give you quick dopamine or stimulation aren’t doing anything at all. I am not good and anything and always compare myself to others even when I know I do not have a god given talent for it or I know I never have done enough to be good at it either. I am afraid of becoming a disappointment to my family or even worse make them worry about me and my future. I am unhealthy and insecure. There is not one thing about myself that I can say that I like or is a good quality of mine.