Just realized I’m an alcoholic and embarrassed it took so long despite being so obvious

Sorry if a lot of this doesn’t make sense I’m drunk rn (on brand) and for some reason today was when the light bulb turned on and I learned I had a problem. Idk why I didn’t notice before it’s so obvious maybe I work in a place where alcoholism is common (I’m in the US military) or maybe it’s just denial but today it just clicked.

For the past two years since I’ve turned 21 I’ve haven’t gone more than a week being sober even under no alcohol orders, most days after work I immediately take my uniform off and drink. It’s so embarrassing to say i didn’t realize how bad it was getting when I was drinking 4-8 rum and cokes daily after work, or the cashier at the liquor store stopped iding me because he knew who I was