Is this a sick joke?

I feel like I have been singled out by whatever deity so that I can be laughed at as the only person in history that cannot manifest things that actually mean something to me.

In the past, I have manifested seeing things like rare coloured cars or having a song play in my shuffled playlist. Things that don't really matter to me at the end of the day. When it comes to things that do matter, for example getting a job, having good grades, being motivated, etc, it just doesn't work. And the worst part about the job one is that everyone around me has gotten jobs when I was manifesting it. This may be birds before land but things like this have happened in the past and they haven't manifested. No matter how optimistic I try to be, I can't ignore the fact that it is starting to take a mental toll on me.

Maybe I am doing something wrong like I am not consistent enough or I have a ton of limiting beliefs. Maybe I am taking the wrong approach to manifestation and I need to change my mindset. I don't know what to do anymore. Is there anyone who has been through this who might be able to help?