Ughhhhh (venting involved be warned)

I put the flair as crushing but I am actually overthinking everything and in a state of suffering (this is a joke I'm just anxious)...

I just got done watching Hazbin Hotel and I think I'm starting to hardcore crush on one of the characters BUT she's already someone's partner here. The thing is I don't want to be someone's double despite the fact said person hasn't been active anywhere online for the past two months.

Which I mean...that's not a long time at all. I've heard of people who go away for months and come back either with the same partner or a different partner. She's also in like every claim list.

And before you think wrong; no I am not complaining. Matter of fact I actually feel gross about myself for liking said character. Like it feels wrong?? I don't know what to do I'm actually lost...I feel like I should just ignore it as a whole and block it out.

Sorry if you read this random ramble I just had to get the panic off my chest...advice would be lovely.