Bottom growth again

I don’t much dysphoria. But I’m thinking T is a thing that once I’m on it I’ll feel like. “Oh I actually feel better/confident in my body now”. Were as now I don’t have an option/feeling of my genitals. They’re just there if that makes senses. I’m feeling more comfortable with the idea of bottom growth now. But am still not 100% sure on my feelings on it. Do any other trans guys felt worried about bottom growth and then turned out to like it. I think I just need advice about how to feel about it! Sorry if this dosnt make sense

TLDR: not 100% about bottom growth. Do any other trans guys feel this way then felt better once they had bottom growth?