How do you leave the organization if you are a baptized member?

I want to leave the JW but I'm not sure how to. I feel like I'm too deep in to ever leave. My husband is very firm in his beliefs so I feel even uneasy brining up to him that I want to leave. I have 2 young kids and they believe in it as well. My son is already talking about his baptism. His dad did it at 19 but my son is 13 and saying he wants to get it done now. I feel this enormous amount of guilt for raising my children in this. I was the mom that made my kids take notes at conventions and made them volunteer. I worry that they might grow up to have the same realizations and not be able to leave.

I'm also a 1st generation JW. My mom immigrated from Italy to Canada after my dad passed, became a JW and raised me as one since I was 6. I would still have my non JW family to talk to but it's not the no contact stuff that concerns me the most. I don't want to ruin my relationship with my husband and have my kids hate me. Also the social backlash scares me.