Am i a lesbian? Or aro?

I just turned 18 recently, i haven’t had my first kiss, I’ve never even particularly wanted to, I’m not a sexual person and I’ve never had the drive or thoughts that most people have to go off of when they try figuring out their sexuality. Im pretty sure I’m asexual, or maybe incredibly repressed but it’s making it hard to pin point exactly what i like. Ive labeled myself as aromantic too for years but i do find myself wondering if I’m truly aro or if i just have no concept of romantic attraction to identify. My parents aren’t homophobes, but i know they’ll be weird about it and a little disappointed when i tell them and especially the way the world is going right now i think I’m also afraid to explore my identity anyway. A little bit of background on myself, I’ve never had a crush on a boy nor have I ever pictured myself being with a boy. I do think some men are attractive but i think that may be a purely aesthetic thing. There have been times where i caught myself seeking male validation but that could also just be be me being a weird and lonely kid who didn’t fit in with girls at school. Girls have been kind of odd for me? I have always kind of been curious and i think more drawn to girls. There were times where i thought to myself i may be attracted to girls when i was little before i had any sort of fear or prejudice or sexual attraction became an issue and i would question myself a lot. Ive always also been very self aware of myself, and i think thats stunted me quite a bit. Im just mildly indifferent to most romantic and sexual things but when i picture my future i picture a partner, and im not sure what i really picture there. Im just confused because ive never been in a relationship or even anywhere close to one and ive never had a proper crush on anyone. Sorry if this was a bit incoherent, im just very confused.