Need guidance and prayers on situation

Hi I could use some guidance and prayer right now. I’m in a situation that’s been heavy on me.

The whole thing is super complex but basically it’s all my sins and wickedness are accumulating and the consequences have built up. I already know what needs to be done it’s super complicated but I’m scared for my family. And I’m sorry for the vagueness it just feels like the only way I can explain it for privacy reasons.

I need to take a certain action however I’m scared the ripple effects of that action will hurt my family. I know it’s the right thing and I know that sounds strange - the right thing hurting my family but yeah. Circumstance wise it’s more like if I don’t take this action I’d only be hurting them more.

In David’s case his sins hurt and impacted his family and that’s kind of my situation- my sins and consequences bleeding into my family’s lives and stability. But I know in terms of repentance this is what god wants me to do, i just need god to help protect and spare them as they’re innocent and the sin is mine so the consequences are mine to bear. My fear is that the ripple effects of the consequences and the action I’m about to take will hurt them.

On another hand, in terms of taking this action it’s really daunting and I am afraid. I’ll have to face all those I’ve sinned against which is a lot and I’ve done some serious things in the past. I’ve delayed a lot out of fear but now that I’m actually doing it, I’m trying to figure out how to do this the right way while protecting them.

I’m scared of whatever consequences will arise and I’m scared to lose everything. I’ve done a lot of evil and I know I deserve whatever is coming, but also deep down I seek whatever mercy available because the consequences will be serious but at the same time I know with all I’ve done I’m at the bottom of the list for mercy. I’ve spent almost all my life rebelling and disobeying god, everything now is me kind of ‘reaping what I’ve sown’.

I also don’t know any other believers irl or any pastors so…yeah.

This was kind of rushed so apologies if there are any mistakes here.

I’d like for some guidance but also prayer for my family and for their protection in this situation . Anything is appreciated.