Should I Seek Help

This is going to probably be really stupid but whatever, I am horribly lazy to the point that I have seriously considered killing myself to avoid putting in effort. Life just doesn't seem worth it most of the time, I don't think I'm depressed because I'm not incapable of feeling happy its just that nothing seems worth it. I can't even enjoy most things I "like" and I'm most often just left frustrated and tired. I don't enjoy the effort I put into things and I never want to work hard, but when I'm just given the results I want it always feels hollow because I didn't work for it. In the end it's not like I can't put in effort, but when every mild inconvenience has you reaching for a knife and thinking about tomorrow makes you tired is anything worth it?