I think I am about to cut this girl off permanently.

I am currently 35 years old. Since I was in high school I had a crush on this girl, but she was always in a relationship. In college we hung out for 2 years and I literally told her I liked her; she never gave me a "yes" or a "no" but just wanted to keep hanging out all the time like if we were in a relationship.

Then a few years later she reached out to me one night after we had barely even spoke and told me her ex is cheating on her and she wants to meet up with me. I declined because I thought that was toxic as hell. I probably would have met up had I not known it had to do with her ex cheating on her.

Fast forward a few years later I told her AGAIN that I liked her, and she told me we should meet up. But it never happened because she came to my city on a day I had an extremely important exam in grad school, and not preparing for it meant failing and out of school and getting kicked out. She made a big deal about it.

Then anyways, that was our 20's.

Recently her and I got in contact AGAIN, and she pretended like she never knew I liked her? And I told her how the hell not? You even reached out to me as well. And she kind of pretended like she couldn't quite remember.

Anyways the other night I told her, look, I straight up like you. She started telling me she doesn't feel good about her self and feels heart broken from her ex from 5 years ago (a different one).

I told her that I was heart broken and married for 7 years but you get over it.

She was kind of giving me vibes of being flirty, but mostly saying I'm kind and "we would hang out a lot" and also sent me a heart with "goodnight" in a foreign language and told me to guess what it was etc. Some emojis and everything. Basically texted many hours back and forth yesterday and was hearting each other's comments.

Then today we had a little back and forth in the morning; she kept telling me about her ex and how he dumped her and told her he wouldn't go back with her (this was from more than 5 years ago). And I told her she's beautiful and will one day move away from the heart break etc.

Then after yesterday we were flirting she asked me if I was going to flirt again today and put a "headache" emoji...

And I was like????

I told her I'm confused; and that she's beautiful and she shouldn't have tolerated somebody cheating on her but that I liked her and wanted to get to know her better.

This is after she had invited me to her city to workout together, as we have a similar hobby (running) and she wants to compete and said we should do them all together.

Well after this morning's chat, she literally just hearted my comment and left me on read and never replied.

Then was just posting stories on online of herself.

And I was thinking, yesterday we were basically flirting then today she asked me if "I" was gonna do it again as if she was not.

Then never replied back from 10 am in the morning.

I was extremely nice to her all this time and always supported her and cared about her. And I feel like that in itself seemingly got me mixed signals and friend-zoned, or maybe not since she did wanna sleep with me years ago?

This shit was extremely confusing and honestly I am sick of it all. I already told her how I felt and it's never been a yes or no, it's just continuing like semi-flirty sometimes then semi-not. Like if I am friend-zoned and not friend-zoned every other day.

I already got so sick of this that I took down my social media because I got tired of thinking too hard about this while seeing her posts.

Now even though she reached out to me with her phone number and we bonded over our old memories and our family, I feel mixed signals again.

I came out of a 8 year marriage and have been divorced 3 plus years. I am tired of cold-feet, being ghosted, hot/ cold vibes. I wanted something real in my life and I thought she was the one, but it seems like it's not.

So it may be messed up and I probably sound VERY toxic for this but I want to start my life over and not have this type of stress in it. I am waiting until the end of the week and am planning to just change my number to lose absolute contact with her and never talk to her again.

This time, 2 years ago, she added me on social media and began keeping in contact. And began telling me how she's glad we are reconnecting etc.

I am so sick of not being chosen and dealing with mixed signals.