Day 5 of quitting - spoiling myself

This is day 5 of quitting and I can’t believe I did something so simple for myself today that I almost made myself cry.

For the past few years all I’ve ever done is send to dommes whenever I had some extra cash or any money to spend whatsoever. I always lived very frugally and spent/ate just enough to keep my alive.

But today, just on a whim, I randomly drove up to a KFC drive through and bought myself a MEAL. Out of nowhere. And it just hit me so hard that, all this time I could’ve invested in myself - made myself happy - cared and fed myself but I was so sick in the head that I resorted to making people who don’t gaf about me happy instead.

I was so happy and sad at the same time. I plan to buy myself lunch ordering out once a week as a reward from now on.