My grandma just told me in a fight my father wanted to abort me, weaponizing it against me, so she "isn't the only bad guy."

Yeah, well, I live with her. She is impossible to deal with, because she always complains, but doesn't want to improve the situation at home (making a cleaning schedule, making a to-do list of the things to fix around the house). Every time I try to talk to her, she just ignores me.

Today, I said I feel like she is trying to make me leave and that I feel unwelcome. She began to cry, playing the victim, "everything is my fault", "you can't wait for me to die", "just stuff me into a retirement home". It escalated, saying I felt I had no home (we live in the family home). She said, for years she has been safe-guarding the secret, but now she'll tell me. My dad wanted to abort me. She isn't the only bad guy! Wow.

I'm having a crash out, emotionally, mentally I'm just like: wow.

Don't know.