Looking for someone to talk to

I think I have reached my lowest point yet. Things only seem to get worse and worse. I feel like I’m out of options. Guilt and fear consume me. I’m not sure what I need, maybe just someone to listen and not disappear like people in my life do. I wish I could feel safe. I know I will most likely not find this online but I don’t know what else to do. Dealing with a world that is designed for healthy people and filled with healthy people feels like walking against the current with weights attached to both legs.