Best protocol

I am now 41. My last cycle I had 1 day 64BC a girl was abnormal. I have not made the follow up appointment. I need time to grieve it hurt me. I went through so much and at the end nothing. I know my doctor will suggest donor eggs because my first cycle. My husband had stage freight. 3 eggs frozen unfortunately did not survive thaw. My second cycle i responded poorly to lupron protocol canceled cycle. My third is my last was a long antagonist protocol estrace priming cycle ended on day 24. I don't know if my eggs were fried by then. I am not there yet with donor eggs. I have 2 older children I can't believe i failed. I am older now I had my 2 other children at 21 and 24. I know its my age but I can't get over it. Can someone please give me a protocol that worked at my age? Thanks