Sleep paralysis and gorilla

I have a long history of sleep paralysis and recurring nightmares/themes.

Yesterday I had an episode where I had already realized it was sleep paralysis so I was trying to move/make noises, and in front of me came a gorilla but like from DOOM where it was moving, but always facing me perfectly.

I continued trying to have my family wake me up as the concept of them came and went within the dream and they know to wake me up in real life.

I was just so aware that the concept of the gorilla was there with me and it might be a seizure dream, so I might wake up in the hospital and to prepare for the dream to make up a reason for the real pain I was about to experience.

Thankfully, I woke up and I was fine this time. It's just not as often that I get that much time to psychologically prepare to wake up in yhe hospital and felt I needed to share it somewhere sooner than later.

At some later point, I halfway regained control of my limbs and the slow motion effect stopped and I looked at my phone in the dream to call for help, and the phone's screen was pure white and there was a vertical white line in both of my eyes' vision that went over it.

I doubt I've ever been so absolutely sure I was in a dream, which makes it so frustrating because of the stress that this could happen to me any night, and last night I did the equivalent of kneeling down and accepting literally devil-gorilla punishment as a result of bad luck and the precognition that this could happen again or be worse every time I go to sleep.