Worst part about reflections is seeing how slowly you ruined everything

I was the dumpee and looking back now I see how much I lost myself in this relationship. I started as a secure independent person and she was going through a divorce. I was her safe space that she even talked to me about her fears and continuous uncertainty. I slowly started becoming insecure and anxious I became very lazy and dependent on her. She broke up with me at my lowest point because I became a heavy weight to her, I begged her for a month until I got blocked.

My advice to everyone! Don’t lose yourself in mid of something and you feel it happening pull out slowly. I wasted a year of my life and now I‘m wasting 4 month of mental health treatment to get back where I was 1.5 years ago.

I wish I can go back by time but unfortunately times only goes forward.