I feel guilty. I kicked her out.

My ex and I went through kind of a messy break up. We lived together and had until March until our lease broke. She told me she wanted to take a break and wanted some space until she talked to me again. A couple days later, I asked about some boundaries regarding our break. She told me that I shouldn’t wait for anything. She didn’t want to give me any expectations. It made me really sad, I will admit. I told her that if we were not going to get back together, then she needs to move out or we need to find other living arrangements. I told her I cannot heal while living with my ex. The thing is, she has family here. I do not. I told her to go live with her mom because I have no one else. I’m the only one that can afford all the bills solely. She thought I was kicking her out. She wanted us to live amicably until March. I told her, I couldn’t heal like that.

I can’t help but feel so much guilt. I kicked her out of her home and sent her back to her parents house, which isn’t the best place for her. It probably hurt her so much. I am thinking of apologizing, but I don’t know what to do. Please let me know what you think. My friends think I didn’t do anything wrong, but I feel so so bad. I can’t imagine how she feels.