I loved the idea of you.

Well... you told me this morning that we are truly only friends. I asked if you flirt and think of your friends that way, and you said some of them, sometimes. I have no right to be upset. At least, I dont think I do. You told me you didn't see me that way. But I read between the lines and I was wrong about what I was seeing. You are never going to want me back or see me in the light that I see you. I need to accept that. I hope that when you do find someone, they look at you the way that I do. A man who is so much more than he shows. The beautiful soul thats beneath the hard exterior. You're not boring like you think.. you are so much more.

I need to back down. I need to walk away, but my heart is begging me to just stay and be your friend, my brain is telling me that its too painful. I can't say that I loved you, but I loved the idea of what could've been, and I think that hurts even more. I hope so much for you, S. I hope that someone can get through your shell, because as much as I wanted to, I suppose I am not the one to do so.

I will forever pray that you find the happiness that you deserve.