Do you have to remind yourself youre a person?

I notice now that I keep forgetting that I am connected to the rules of humanity. By rules of humanity, I just mean the basic concepts of like how to treat people and things like that. I’m not able to leave my current situation but I just keep forgetting that I’m a human being, I’m a person, I deserve kindness and I don’t deserve to be bullied or made fun of. I think alot of the ugliness thats been presented to me, has turned into me being rude, jealous, and snarky myself which makes it even harder to believe that I’m a person who deserves kindness? I don’t even know if this makes sense. I just feel sub human. Any thoughts?