Help!!

Hi, I'm here to share something very personal. About six months ago, my boyfriend of three years started going to church regularly and getting closer to God. It's worth noting that he's a Christian since childhood, and I was born into a Catholic family. I started going more out of a sense of obligation than anything else, but I eventually came to believe in God and Jesus, although I still have some reservations about the church.

The point is that everything was going well, he never actually asked me if I wanted to be a Christian, it felt more like an obligation on his part and that of his family; in the end it didn't bother me because I knew it was part of an important spiritual growth.

However, two months ago he told me that he wanted to save himself for God and that he didn't want to be intimate with me; he never asked me how I felt about it. Three weeks ago, I really wanted to be with him, we had sex, and afterwards the level of guilt he felt shocked me, but we didn't bring it up again.

It really bothers me because he doesn't want to have sex with me, but he masturbates to other women. Last week I opened his laptop to print a file and the first thing that came up was a conversation with one of his friends where the friend was sending him lots of photos and videos of his fans telling him to enjoy it.

These past two weeks we've been together at my place since I'm on vacation, and you have no idea how hard it is for me. Sometimes I hint that I need physical contact with him, and he just looks at me with disapproval or disgust. I don't know if I can wait until marriage. I don't know what to do. It hurts so much that I've thought about ending the relationship so I don't have to keep thinking and feeling these things. I feel rejected and belittled. What should I do??